an elegy to myself

sometimes,
like today,
I feel like
not talking anymore
in this world;
I feel like
going silent,
sinking into that space
from where
these words flow,
and never come out
from there,
to see this world
ever again,
sometimes
like today,
I just want to dig
my own watery grave
and write my own elegy -
a song that I will sing
to myself,
as I sink
into the depths
of that one breath
that gave me
this life,
this end.