The Fire Test

I sit with myself
holding on
to what's left -
in the caldera,
as I take my test;
embers glow, in the
darkness around,
after anger and fear,
explode with
deafening sounds;
my stomach churns,
my insides give in;
I hold on to silence,
to numb the pain within;
I cast away the old
to break free
from the mould,
as one little tear
drops to cool -
my heaven!