Eulogy for Myself

I don't want to live
so people cry when I die,
I don't want to live
so the ones I love
hold me in their hearts forever;

I want to live
so I can laugh and cry
sometimes in one breath,
I want to live
to fill my eyes
with sunrises and sunsets;

I want to live
so I can have one friend
I can give my whole self to
without holding back,
I want to live
so I can love
and learn what it takes
to love someone
who doesn't want to be loved;

I want to live
so I can look at the stars
and forget about living or dying;
I want to live
so my living is the eulogy
I write for myself,
etched across the heavens
on one star-filled night.