darkness and i

i stand today
in the blazing fire
of darkness,

i let the fire
engulf my skins
melting in the heat
and glare
of all that I couldn't dare
to face,
not until now,
charred like a log
dead to the world,
crumbling to ash,
yet very much alive,
hurtled
like the sparks
flailing and falling
in a ceremonial dance
of that glorious alchemy,

we feed on each other,
this darkness and i,
and that is the only way
i know
how to begin
to love myself.