the dream

since I was a child,
I've had this dream
of free-falling
in the dark,
and sometimes
waking up
with a start,
frozen into wakefulness
with ice cold terror.

I don't have those dreams anymore.

and yes, today,
I feel I'm living that dream,
free-falling into a life
that keeps me awake
in the unfolding darkness,
where there is no ground
to fall to or land on,
only endless sky,
and a curving web
of connectedness,
cradling me,
as I curl deeper
into myself.